Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Call it reality sinking in.

Where to begin?

First off, Emily is going to start going to PRESCHOOL!! so I will regain my mornings to blog. YAY! My internet works. YAY! and I have a fully functioning computer. YAY!

Excuses aside, I want to do this for my girls someday. I want to be able to go back and read about the crazy things Emily and Claire did and how I felt about them so that I can cry over how cute and sweet they used to be when they are 16 and 13 and making me NUTS.

I was on good ol' Facebook today and I stumbled across my status from a year ago today. Something like "OFFICIALLY felt Baby VP#2 squirming around today" I stopped and thought about the craziness of this for a second. A year ago today I didn't know that the Claire that I know today was growing inside of me. I didn't know if she was a boy or a girl. I didn't know her personality or her adorable smile or her cute chunky thighs. Oh, how much my heart has grown since that day a year ago! I didn't know if it was possible to love another baby as much as I was in love with my Emily. Everyone assured me it would be fine. I knew in my heart it would be. But to look at her now across the room in her bouncer smiling her big toothless smile with two dimples on each side and drool on her chin.... it actually tears me up a little to think of my life without her.

I LOVE my girls. Both of them! They both melt my heart in unexplainable ways. This is also proof to me that God knows be better than I know myself. I KNEW that I wanted all boys. I didn't want to have to deal with the girl hormones and the frills and the PINK. I HATED pink. Now when I do laundry there is so much pink that the lint in the trap turns pink. I LOVE IT. It makes me laugh every time.

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